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|Halfway point and today.|
So what do I do when that brownie is calling my name at 9:30 at night? Or when Madden's chicken nuggets and mac and cheese are staring me in the face at dinner time? I have to use every ounce of will power to not just shove them in my pie hole. The temptation is real. It's like a force beyond my control. When I use hashtags like #myinnerfatgirlishappy when I am eating something unhealthy that is no joke.
Food was and always will be an addiction. A type of drug for me. If you've ever struggled with your weight, or are struggling right now, then you know exactly the addiction that I am talking about. Unhealthy food fills a void that no amount of "clean eating" can. Now, obviously I don't always give into those temptations, otherwise I would be back where I started. And I worked too dang hard to get to where I am to ever go back down that path.
But the question is, will I ever not have to fight with this? And if I'm being honest with myself, the answer is no. Bad temptations will always be there. Unhealthy choices will always be there. I can't hide from them. I can't run away from them. But the truth of the matter is that this lifestyle I am living now is a choice. Plain and simple. I have the choice to control what I put in my mouth. I have the choice to workout everyday or not. I have a choice.
Now, not only do I have a choice to be healthy and work hard to maintain where I am right now, I also have the choice to be happy. If I deprived myself from all things bad for me 100% of the time, I would be unhappy. I would be crabby. Nobody would want to be near me...That is why I say I eat clean 85% of the time. I allow myself cheat meals. Yes, I said cheat meal"s". How, what and when do I indulge in my "cheats?" That's a topic I want to delve into tomorrow. Because I am real. I am just like you. I am not a machine...
What questions do you have for me when it comes to my "clean eating" and my "cheats?" What do you want to know about how I manage the space in between? Leave your questions in the comments section and I will answer them tomorrow!
Until next time...