Why I Haven't Gone "Public" With My Blog...Yet

I feel like such a bad blogger lately.  I mean, I didn't post yesterday (mainly because I literally ran out of time between preschool parties, swimming lessons and trying to clean this pig pen of a house) and the posts that I actually have deemed "worthy" for you all haven't been up to my standards.  I feel like I'm struggling to keep you myself interested in what I have to say.  I will literally sit at my computer for like 30-45 minutes just trying to come up with a topic.  I will start, get going a little bit, then lose all focus, and my train of thought.

I started this blog to document family milestones, fitness tips, random recipes, some of my fashion faves, etc.  But you wanna know a secret??  I haven't shared with any of my family or friends that I'm blogging...awful, right??

It's mainly because the one big thing that I really want to talk about, I haven't bit the bullet on yet.  Why is that?  Well, I'm scared that people that I really know in "real life", not just my blogging friends will stumble upon this blog and read about my daily life.  Not that I'm ashamed of it by any means, but sometimes I want to share things on here with y'all that I don't want the whole world to know...does that make sense?

I'm using this blog as a type of journal and scrapbook of memories.  And I guess I feel more confident about my free writing skills when I know that none of you out there are judging me...(or if you are, I don't really know you, personally, so I don't have a reason to get too embarrassed!)  Whereas, if I make this blog "Public" (aka, posting to facebook, instagram, and letting my family know about it) I feel like they already know me and have preconceived notions about my life, therefore will judge me if I post something even remotely controversial.

So my question to you all is this:  How did you or when did you decide to go public with your blog?  How do you throw out all of your reservations and fears about laying your life out on a silver platter for all to see read?

I'm really struggling with this right now and I truly believe that is why my posts have been lacking substance.  Do I keep my blog private (just sharing with my blog friends) and divulge into a layer of my personal life that I haven't yet touched upon yet?  Or do I open it up for everyone and their dog to read?

Any and all feedback on this subject would be greatly appreciated.  I love all my readers for even taking the time everyday to touch base with me and my blog, and I truly value your feedback!  So, from the bottom of my heart, I want to hear from you...because I have so, so much more to share!

Until next time...