I mean, where else can I go to post completely random thoughts, videos and pictures of myself without feeling like I'm being judged?? Where else can I talk about trials, hurdles and struggles without wondering what my friends are thinking of me?
This is my place. My place of quiet. My place of soothing, calming, relaxation. This screen is empty, until I fill it with words that make me, me! I can truly, 100% be myself here. What you see on this screen, is exactly who I am. I don't hide things. I don't sugar coat things. This is the real deal, Jenna. I just feel like, sometimes, with my "real life" friends, I have to word things a certain way as to not press any buttons. To make everything seem perfect. When in all actuality, that's not who we, as humans, are.
So, I come here (almost) everyday, and speak my mind. I know that y'all are out there reading me, and either laughing, making fun, or judging me...but you know what the great part about blogging is?? We are a community. We all started blogging for a reason. It might not all be the same reason, but we are here to support one another through it all. Now, I'm not an idiot, and I know that there are definitely some negative Nelly's out there, but I don't personally know them, so they can't hurt me or my feelings. (For too long, anyway!)
If you don't care to read about my life, then go another way. It may be brutally honest to some, but it's the truth. I am doing this for me. I started this blog for that reason, not exactly knowing what all came with it, and just letting it kind of take care of itself. But, with that, and by being me, I have found some of the most amazing blog friends a girl could ever ask for!! I am not kidding you when I say that I know of at least a handful of women out there in blogland, that I've never actually met, that would be in my corner and would watch my back if I ever needed them to. And that, my friends, is more than I could ever ask for.
I don't want to have to spare my words on here, in fear of hurting one of my real life friends' feelings. I don't want them to look at me any differently just because I said something that they didn't agree with. I want to be able to post "selfies" of myself. My son. My house. I want to brag about the great, and complain about the bad. To share life's ups and downs without wondering what they are thinking. And that, y'all is why I'm just not quite ready.
|Yep...definitely wouldn't be posting these to facebook and instagram...|
Until next time...